Bits of me here and there.

Thursday, 28 March 2019

Right Love

I learned it hard way, love could come as many illusions.
I had one where it felt like a rush in your blood, asked you to jump with the flow.
I had one where it felt like walking on a thin rope, asked you to be prepared to fall into the pit of darkness.
I had one where it felt like getting lost in a maze, asked you to be patient and navigate your way out of it.
I also had one where it finally felt right.

What I also learned is,
the right love will make you safe.
The right love will not take you for granted.
In the right love, happiness is not a luxury.
It is given.
In the right love, you will not be always okay. You will fight. You will have arguments.
But the right love will encourage you to be better. To grow together.
The right love will not make you feel like you are not worthy.
The right love will appreciate your values. Your beliefs.
The right love will not make you any less of yourself.

And when you know, you know.
Saturday, 16 February 2019

Kaleidoskop 2018

See, the less dramatic my life is, the less my post will be either.

2018 had been good.
A real good one.
I experienced so much happiness, joy, I kept staying from trouble,
and well,
it turned out real fine.

Here is the thing though,
I still live in fear and insecurity that,
sometimes,
life has its way to ruin itself in mine.
I do believe that it will not stay like this everytime,
this being all this calmness, happiness, assurance, and all the good things in my life now.
But when the time comes, I hope I am armored with strength and warmth and all the people who will stand by me through thick and thin.

2018 was one of my favourite year,
hopefully 2019 will follow.
Saturday, 15 September 2018

Manchester Chronicles: The University

Susah banget ya ngepost secara konsisten tuh.
Dari kemaren gue selalu kepengen ngepost lagi, tapi kayak, ini mau cerita apa? I start to get my shit together again, dan gue kayak baru sadar, the moment I could talk freely di blog itu ketika hidup gue lagi amburadul. Lol. Apakah memang penyaluran stres gue harus lewat tulisan, entahlah.
But yeah, ini blog ga bisa dibiarin berdebu (kayak tahun 2013 - yang sampe ga ada post sama sekali), dan dari kemarin gue udah kepikiran buat mulai reminiscing kehidupan gue di Manchester, hence the name Manchester Chronicles (padahal mah ya chronicles macam apa coba, itu kota isinya itu itu aja).

Jadi, gue kuliah di The University of Manchester. Bukan MMU, apalagi University of Salford. Itu udah di kecamatan sebelah. Ya siapa tau ada calon mahasiswa mau baca baca, karena jujur aja kemaren pas mau pergi susah banget nyari blog orang tentang hidup di Manchester. Ya siapa tau bisa menjadi penolong juga.
So, the university. Kalo kalian cuma liat mapnya, mungkin bakal bingung. Ini kampus gimana sih... Kenapa amburadul kieu dimana mana tempatnya... Aing teh bakal kuliah dimana... Ya sama, itu juga pikiran gue. Karena literally jalan utama di kota ini hampir diisi sama kampus. Kadang gue suka bilang gini, Manchester itu isinya cuma 2, kampus dan city center. Melebar ke pinggir-pinggir baru rumah rumah orang.


Ini namanya University Place. Tempat beli kaos, jaket, dan printilan souvenir universitas. Tempat kuliah juga. Tempat ngambil toga wisuda juga. Salah satu tempat janjian paling enak karena deket setopan bus dan di dalemnya banyak kursi dan anget. La haula ga penting banget ini informasi. Meskipun ada tulisan University of Manchester-nya, tapi ga bisa dipake foto karena aslinya susah banget fotonya. Bisa sih kali ya kalo ngambilnya dari sebrang jalan tapi ya isinya muka doang. Kadang disebut "the Tin" sama orang sana, gara-gara bentuknya kayak kaleng.


Ini namanya..... yallahi namanya apa ya gue lupa. Pokoknya tempat foto sejuta umat. Sedikit dari bagian kampus yang masih kerasa "tua"-nya. Tapi ga terlalu berguna buat kehidupan perkuliahan, karena ga ada kelas-kelasnya. Wisuda disini. Btw ruang wisudanya kecil banget buset, gue pertama kali masuk bingung sendiri gimana caranya wisuda. Ternyata wisudanya ada 20 sesi *ngelap keringet*. Biasanya spot ini akan ramai ketika penerimaan mahasiswa baru dan wisudaan. Diluar waktu itu, kalo foto disini, biasanya dikirain turis.


Salah satu gedung paling ciamik di kampus, selain gedung sebelumnya. Tulisannya aja Faculty of Arts, tapi gue yang anak sosial juga bisa ada kuliah disini kok kadang kadang. Dari luar ciamik, ternyata di dalemnya sama aja bentuknya. Kelasnya tetep berbentuk kotak-kotak, kursinya juga normal, bukannya yang ala ala Hogwarts gitu.


Of courssseee the one and only Alan Gilbert Learning Commons a.k.a Algil (that's how we Indonesians call it), meskipun alhamdulillah gue ga pernah perlu ngerasain nginep disini. Tapi sungguh memang nyari motivasi buat nyelesaiin essay tuh harus kesini karena dikelilingi anak anak ambis yang bikin jam 9 pagi aja udah susah nyari komputer kosong, syukur-syukur masih ada pojokan kosong. Tapi di bulan-bulan terakhir lebih luv Joule Library.


Ternyata cuma 4 gedung ini yang pernah w fotoin, tapi sungguh banyak gedung-gedung di kampus yang bikin susah move on. Kangen Manchester.......

Sunday, 29 July 2018

Votofolio: Rera & Tito Engagement










Captured by yours truly.
Sunday, 8 July 2018

Some Days


Some days, the clouds are too black.
The silver linings are invisible.
All you can do is navigating the way out of the clouds.
Some days, it is not enough, but it is all you can do.

Some days, the rain doesn't stop falling.
The sun is hiding, leaving the grey clouds covering your day.
All you can do is trying to keep everything dry.
Some days, it is not enough, but you are not given any options.

Some days, you don't feel okay, at all.
Everything seems a bit worse, a bit harsher, a bit cruel.
All you can do is trying to get through the day.
Some days, it is not enough, but at least you survive.