Bits of me here and there.

Friday 19 January 2018

Battling the Fear



I never knew, until this point, but I just realised moving on was never about the person.
It was the fear.
It was about battling the insecurities, on why people stay, when they have hundred reasons to leave.
It was about trying to put another trust again, on another human being, wishing they would be different.
Are they?
I don't know, though.
It was never about the person.
It was the fear.
It was about fighting for your own values, remembering that I'm so much more worth to be treated equally, and deserved to be myself.
It was about trying to put a foot in front of another, trying to make baby steps, on believing again.
Am I?
I don't know, though.
It was never about the person.
It was the fear.
It was about crawling from the serenity from being alone, hoping nobody could hurt you anymore, cause you did not give any reason to.
It was about trying to put some hopes again, wishing life would be favor me this time, and you were the one.
Are you?
I don't know, though.
You did not make it seem easy, no.
But you made me want to try again.
Tuesday 2 January 2018

Kaleidoskop 2017


2017, honestly, really is something else.
This year, I lived recklessly.
This year, I learned how stand on my own feet, bravely.
This year, I let go.
This year, I hurt irresponsibly.
This year, I loved dangerously.
This year, I built wall, to be torn down, and built a new one even higher.
This year, I accepted love and help from my support system.
This year, I slipped away from the path I've been crafting since the beginning.
This year, I failed my people.
This year, I understood everything happened for a reason.
This year, I acknowledged pain.
This year, I endured loses.
This year, I welcomed new things, and big changes.
This year, I fought demons in my head.
This year, I searched for happiness.
This year, I walked longest I've ever been.
This year, I saw the beauty in this world.
This year, I flew across the continents.

This year, I fell down.
This year, I stood up.
This year, I found myself again.

Thank you, 2017.