Bits of me here and there.

Friday, 9 April 2021

2/30: To Overcome

 (this is a part of 30 topics writing challenge)


Second topic in and I'm already changing the subject. Well if it ain't me. But I feel like I can talk more about this: What is something you’ve had to overcome in your life? 

It's a bit scattered in my brain right now, but I think I managed to move past the feeling of not being enough. It stemmed from the earliest memory of heartbreak that I ever experienced: I was not good enough and I was easily replaceable. I think, deep down, it really crushed me and broke my trust to people.

And thus, I began to detach from people. I started to store relationship in my brain as something temporary. I trained myself to feel okay by being alone. As sad as it sounded, it was something that support my life in Manchester, that I was able to live on my own. I felt enough by myself, I felt comfortable to roam around on my own, I took solo trips to cities, the only thing I needed was myself. 

But I met person, people, and somehow my perception shifted. I do think I still need to manage my attachment, but not everybody will leave. Some will stay. Some stays. Some grew apart, but it's okay.

I am good. And I am enough. And I am worthy of people. And I deserve love.

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